Valentines ,Shmalentines

This Post is dedicated to all those who are lonely on valentines day eating discounted chocolates watching love actually because you're all a saddistic self loathing, pity party, but secretly wish for the sparkles and love glitter etc, etc.

I am a self proclaimed forever alone entrepreneur. Anyone that has known me can attest to that. For years I've dated, had maaaad crushes, and even loved once at least I thought it was. I was convinced that guys just seriously don't like me and that I will always be one of the boys (I have a comic book dealer for god sakes). Like all any normal single girl I've read the bible Greg Behrendt's He's just not into you, watched all the sex and the city episodes and wished for the best every birthday candle since I started liking boys, and even the occasional 11:11 time stamps. I was starting to believe that I was on the path to cougarism. It wasn't until I was facebook creeping when reality literally stomped me in the face after looking at some couples anniversary pics I thought to myself "I am not going to put myself through this, I am tooo awesome". I started to not fret about not finding someone but actually started to find myself, what I like, and attributes I posses. When you begin to love yourself you start to appreciate those around you and that aura alone is enough to catch any guy's attention from a 10 mile radius.

 because I love listening to mushy songs and ugly crying here is my gift to you on valentines day from ATG Records:

All Things Go Valentines Mixtape VI

Finding your niche

About 8 months ago I truly didn't know what the hell I was doing with my life, or what direction I wanted to be in career wise. It honestly took a good friend to take me to timmies and on a tissue I wrote down my goals, hopes and aspirations. Although I'm not yet truely doing what I want to do in terms of my career I'm getting pretty darn close. It truely does take patience and the reality is I'm not the only 20 something year old writing down my goals on a used tissue. Alot of 20 something year olds today are not working into the careers they truely want to be in, after university theres a good percentage of students who are in a somewhat career limbo..I know I definitely was. It takes self reflection and maybe some out of town trips here and there to really figure out what YOU want for your life. Miley Cyrus was right..it's all about the climb, and of course some good books and a motivational speech.

A friend of mine recommended Sally Hogshead's Radical Careering, now I'm not one to usually read self-help books very often but this e-book surprised me and is definitely worth the time. It's also incredibly free (just click the link)

Radical Careering by: Sally Hogshead

Larry Smith's inspirational speech (courtesy of another good friend)

First World Problems and Sundays

Disclaimer: This specific entry is about first world problems, and basically a semi whine post on wanting something more with monetary issues and what not..if you dont give a shit proceed to read.

I bought a gift for myself, which in my opinion is well deserved. I've been soo good all year, somewhat and with my birthday in 2 weeks and the recent black friday sales..a good deal is a good deal. But alas we always want more, and are never content. For years I've always wanted a

DSLR, specifically a Canon Rebel, I'm always settling for the safe route. Bills suck butt but thank god I don't really have serious ones just yet, such as mortgage and what not. Last night I settled for a Nikon L-120 digital camera, because I was itching and impulsive for a new camera, specifically for this blog and for recording the adventures of my young adult years to come. I've been using my crappy old sony cybershot brick for about 10 years now and it was well about time I upgraded. Upon buying it my initial feeling was cool...but that was just it. I wanted more and will probably buy my dream camera..the thing is, I know I can afford it it's just a matter of well if I buy this, I won't be going out for a bit and with Christmas around the corner it's going to be a little hard to save. Also with future plans to move out within a year or two I really needed to get my shit together. The other part of me is like well shit you're working really hard and since this new job I havnt really treated myself other than that one $20 manicure I got at the mall. Life is short and we encounter random investments be it emotionally, our physical investments such as going to a gym, or dating, to buying a home. I feel as if as I'm getting older I'm starting to understand this growing up thing, and the leaping of faith. In order to fufill a certain level of contentment it's really all about making the jump, winning and losing some.

Anyways point is I think im exchanging this digital camera into an DSLR....happy birthday to me!